It's easy to forget why you're doing all this. You're retaking SAT's, killing yourself over AP's, working 40 hours a week, and you're letting yourself go to the point where fingerless gloves actually seem like extra and not a prerequisite for your daily ensemble.
Even if you do everything right and get straight A's (Obviously this example is this IDEAL student, not me) and you get into the college you've been dreaming about, what if at the finish line you can't go? What if money becomes a large, overwhelming issue? It'd be like getting to the finish line and getting to stare at the first place trophy, but not being able to take it home with you.
As the spring begins to bear down on us all, summer seems short and fall seems like it's already here. Some kids drop their studies at this point with one foot in the door. Spring is going to be a few more months, summer's going to be two months, and then we have the fall.
The autumn, the mighty fall, that first semester, the beginning of that first year, where it seems like everyone drops out. What the hell was any of it for then?
All of my friends who are of college age dropped out in the first year or didn't go. All four years of high school leading to up to a huge, disappointing, anticlimactic crapshoot.
You know, you just have to wonder if that's going to be you and if you're okay with that.
Thank you so much for reading and for your kind words! I'll be sure to give that podcast a listen. The goal to live a life is the ultimate one, I agree but it seems like the hardest one to really focus on right now because we all believe that these other goals like an education set us up to be comfortable. It's like we don't even acknowledge that this is a part of real life sometimes, like as kids we believe real life starts as adults.
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