He said that I'm never satisfied, that nothing's ever good enough for me.

So what?  It's a symptom of ambition. It's what drives anyone to go after what they want.  But as of late I've had some difficulty dealing with the fact that some things are just out of my control. My whole life I've been saying to myself that if I work hard enough I will have the things that I want.  But it just doesn't work that way with people and relationships.

I've discussed before how one can't save anyone else from themselves.  People have to want to fix themselves. I'm not talking about saving anybody else though.  I'm talking about falling and falling hard, and not getting caught.

People are complex, and they don't always know what they want. I can shake my head and look at my studies and my dreams and say that's good enough.  But I can't look at a guy that I can't win over and tell him I'm going to keep chasing him until he gives in.  That's insane.  That's some psycho drama drugstore romantic novel bull crap. On a side note, when a guy is overly persistent it's cute and when a girl does it's desperate.  That's some double standard bull crap. But I digress.

When this guy told me that I'm never satisfied, I thought damn right. He wasn't talking about himself in that context, but he may as well have been. I always reach for the best thing, whether it's in my grasp or not. I just have to take a step back because he's not an option. 

The only option I have is to better myself and look for things and people that make me happy.  And he's never going to make me happy in the way I'd like.  I should move on to someone who will.